funny
it's funny sometimes how even by reading or writing can change your thoughts entirely. i wasn't to be affected, that was what i told myself. but reading those RPs and writing them myself can somehow make me think of the things i had promised to forget. Talking about it always seemed ok. but it's funny how come penning it down was not all right with me. seeing things for myself was worse. maybe it just got too deep into my heart and i couldnt get it out after that. maybe i was not borned to forget, but to remember instead. i got angry with myself for not being able to forget, even after weeks. maybe i shld be surprised at my ability to keep memories instead. i do not know. i do not know even what kind of person i am now. whether i hate myself for this or love myself for it.
lesson proper has started. i was assigned with 2 tutorials already and i had done them all. mathematics was bad. it was not to be trifled with, it was not to be challenged. well, it challenges you, not you challenge it. i learnt that cos i took 1.5 hours for 5 questions, one question filling up an entire page, and it was only a looking-simple topic of partial fractions. wow... looks can be deceiving, cos when i saw the questions they look simple enough. but once you start doing it you would be pissed by the repeated linear factors and what-nots. chemistry was difficult as always, maybe cos i have forgotten all my chemistry work. i shall spend my weekend rereading chemistry stuff if i am not gng out with anyone.
my class is a queit bunch of people. i seriously miss my squad. well, it was not entirely quiet, cos quite a few are noisy and it was mostly the senior J1s making the noises. they are lively and i like them lots. well, maybe just cos all of us are in the post-orientation mode and did not want to leave our squad, thus we are all so quiet. i wasnt being as noisy as i was in orientation, but definitely not too quiet either. i still tried to catch up with other cheer i/cs along the corridors and even during assembly today. hahaha. wilfred is in my history class and yixiang is in the same class as marcus and i still manage to talk to other cheer i/cs like peien and jody during recess and everything. i still hang out with algerians too, ppl like juliat, xueting and shirley and i get to talk to laypeng once in a while. but it's like studying mood is gonna seep into our cells and soon we would stop and mugg for A's.
but most of all, i miss GITS INC., esp chief. =( and cec, eveyy and angela too. my new friends are so different from them tht i am the noisiest and craziest one amongst them, can you believe it, considering my personality, considering what you guys know about me. i can't. lolx. but i do admit i am getting a little too crazy at times during orientation and have since stopped and settled down to study. aww man... back to that mode again and i totally hate it.
