what's left?
the sun was almost setting in the sky. Even the birds were retiring back to their very own trees. somewhere they belong. I could see students hurrying to get home, somewhere they feel safe... somewhere they could be themselves.

all i was doing was just sitting by the window, watching them go. the door to my room had remained shut for hours now. shut, but not locked. yet, no one came in to check on me for what i was doing. the serenity was disturbed only by the noises from below, where the bustling of activity was.

the room was where i kept my innermost secrets. not one was allowed in. my door to the world remained shut at all times, yet no one cares to interfere.

i like it. but what's left in me for the outside world to see? i am not sure either.

-a boring anecdote by yubing when she was in daze-

the first week of prelims are almost over.
guess what? i screwed geog.
wow. big news.
i never passed this year.
for these past few days, i was feeling really depressed.
even when a phone call cheered me up, an sms spurred me on, a joke made me laugh...
i returned to my depressed mode within seconds after putting down the phone, after replying the sms, after laughing at the joke.
can i carry on?
i am not sure.
i thought i could take this.
maybe i was wrong.
i wasnt as strong as i thought i was.
this morning i was in the verge of tears.
though my eyes are already tearing from the immense lack of sleep.
after the geog paper i felt really worse, but more relieved than ever.
sitting around in the classroom waiting for the time to pass by when everyone else was writing was dead depressing.
the agony.
it passed.
i wonder if it will still be the same for o's.