disappointed
*408 peeps, pls scroll to the bottom!*
today is perhaps the most depressing day of my life. waiting for just one o level subject results is no joke for me. believe me. next year when i receive my results i will die of nervousness. just this year i even cried while just waiting for it. cried while mr foo made his speech. because he is not satisfied with our results. i was thinking, "what if i am the one who got a B3 and has to drop HCL?" the more i thought of it the worse i felt and the more i felt like crying and in the end i did. i did not know what to expect. i was thinking i would get a B3 or A2 and tht would be the end of my life cos i really want it to be an A1 badly. i really do want it and after all tht i have studied i think i deserved it. but no. i was wrong. it was not only mr foo who was disappointed with our results. i was damn disappointed with my A2.
true. some did get a B3 or B4 and they would wish that they had received mine. but no. nothing feels as good as an A1 and i was rather sad that wjp did not come to our class at all. she is our chinese teacher and she isnt the one who gave us our results. a teacher who has never taught us before gave us ours and despite the tears of sadness or tears of joy our class had, she never came. i was very very very sad. she is one of my favourite teachers and she had to be the one to desert my class during such a crucial moment, to join another class just because they were smarter. i think it's really disappointing and plain irritating that she is not there for us when we needed her just then. we want her opinions and we want her to praise or scold us, whichever way she wants. but no. the sad thing is she ignored us completely and i feel tht tht's the biggest mistake she ever made if she wanted our class to show her respect. my class was the last to get back the results and we were to wait, listening to all the cheers and screams of joy of other people. tht was the most cruel treatment my class ever had. ignored by our very own teacher and not getting our results when we know we are the worst class of the cohort.
when i got my result slip, the 'two' printed on it kept my mind blank for a moment before i broke down. cindy gave me the most comforting hug ever and jiayi's hand gave me the warmth that i ever felt. but i cant help it. i just cried and cried. i rushed back to my class after looking around for wjp. and she is there, congratulating 401. great. just great. i felt a thousand times worse when i heard other classes gave themselves three cheers. i left the audi in a hurry and got back to my class, sat and wept. but what was done was done. my A1 is gone. so now i have to work hard on my HCL, get THAT A1 and get the rest of the subjects to be a 1 too. i pulled myself tgt and went for training.
thanks cindy from my class for the hug. thanks cindy from softball for tht hug. thanks clarissa and tess and xinhui and jiawen for comforting me. thanks bel for sharing my probs with me. thanks sec 3 hurricanes for being there for me.
thanks cecilia for comforting me too. thanks angela for the sweet message which really touched me lots. you two rock my sb world. you two rock my whole whole world. and eveyy my xiao shuai ge.. thanks for the tagg!
thanks serene, jasmine and zuhui for the kind words of encouragement and comfort. thanks siong aik for encouraging me to pull myself tgt and move on. thanks jarrel for encouraging me and tell me not to cry... you rockk too. :)
thanks wjp for making me feel a thousand times worse. thanks lots. you did a great job on tht. if you really hate 408 and like 401 so much, dont teach us. thank you. you didnt dampen my morale. you dampened the CLASS'S morale.
Letter to 408...
heyy 4o8...got back o level chi results lei am sure some of us arent happy with theirs
and i am sure most of us are a lil disappointed to see the expected msg of our class lowest in the cohortit's time we work hard and pull ourselves tgt yea? =)
let's work towards the final target of o levels tgt. let's not be what mr foo makes us out to be. let us prove to him tht we are not the worst batch ever. we cant let him look down on us.
i will nv forget today when we were all waiting anxiously in class tgt. cursing tht PA system in unison was the moment i felt when our class truly cares abt our results, no matter what the teachers sae. we arent bad students and let's prove it to them.
next year, perhaps, most of our classmates will be mentioned for being a top student. who noes? let's hope most of us will be on the top student list. we shall create a miracle yea? let's work hard tgt for the final exam.
JIAYOU!
lotsa loves from ur class chairman. =)
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